a new phase has begun… the vulnerability phase. it’s one i hate, with much uncertainty, the most. at the same time this seems to be all that i’m striving for. in this phase i am going to share excerpts from my journals and emails because they are the places where i write the most freely, unabashedly, and with the least [...]
Archive for August, 2008
tender heart
Posted in Uncategorized on August 30, 2008 | 3 Comments »
the only way
Posted in Uncategorized on August 24, 2008 | 1 Comment »
“If it be Your will”
it’s the most difficult, most disappointing, most painful way to go about things… but it’s the only way. It’s the only hope, it’s the only truth, and it’s the only life for me.
I pray again and again:
If it be your will
It is my hope, my mercy, my grace. It is the arms [...]
roofless, ruthless
Posted in Uncategorized on August 23, 2008 | 4 Comments »
sometimes i get afraid that i fall off the face of the earth too much. my desire to run is ferociously rabid. i know you can’t tell by looking at me, its because i am geriatric, huh? so i sit, and rock in a little rocking chair… waiting, hiding my running shoes under the blanket [...]
360 degrees, getting in my personal space.
Posted in Uncategorized on August 22, 2008 | 1 Comment »
sitting on the front porch on the couch my glances lingered between my book and the clouds. the clouds hardly moved, i felt comforted. i wanted to touch them to see what would come out. why are they so good? so marvel worthy? i had this really spiritual moment of realizing that God really is all around [...]
creative
Posted in Uncategorized on August 14, 2008 | 4 Comments »
I signed up for a photography class at School of Visual Arts. I. am. jack’s. thrilled. bones.
I realized that a lot of my wiggling around and heart jostling recently was because I was drifting. No job I loved. No heart friends around. No established home. No extra moolah. No reason to be in New York. [...]
criss cross applesauce
Posted in Uncategorized on August 14, 2008 | 3 Comments »
i am going to bed tonight thinking about how as children we cry everyday of our lives. the thought of crying everyday from the very beginning of your life until a couple thousand days later is exhausting. no wonder we nap as children, no wonder we are easily amused by mr rogers. i am going to bed with the sound of crying [...]
Down to the Last
Posted in Uncategorized on August 5, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Do we ever wonder about the miraculous in every day life. How God sees the big picture, and we don’t?…. or we think we don’t until…..
I hopped in my car and rushed to the Thruway to have a quiet evening at home Monday night. And as I approached the time where you get out the [...]
