today after work i have just stopped in at a little cafe really close to my house… i have this thing on my heart, that i just really really need to experience God.. like right now. i don’t know exactly where to go, or what to do, but i didn’t want to go home directly.
in someways i feel very hungry for Him, and in other ways i just feel fine, but i just want to be near him, converse with him, hang with him… i feel so preoccupied… and i have little patience left for myself in my preoccupation.
and that lack of patience is showing up all over in my life right now. it leaves me quite frustrated.
i just ate all the foam off my cappuccino with raw sugar sprinkled on it.
a nice treat that i feel like barfing up…
i feel like just spending time with Him has become difficult. like i don’t know where to go for that time anymore…
lord, help me, i’m searching for you.
are you searching for me too, lord?
discipleship classes are starting up for me very soon… i am really looking forward to it for alot of reasons.. one being that i get a mentor, another being i get the information i’m seeking and tools to use. but i know disciples have it hard.. so i know i too will have it hard.
i am already looking at some difficult questions… questions that i know no answers to.
how can i follow you, when i can’t even find you?
i know you are in me- there you are
but somehow i just want to find you in a special place…
meet me in montauk.
montauk, mmhmmm.
are the classes through Bridge?
who’s the mentor?